Balancing Act

In darkness I dwelled for such a long time. Plenty of sparkles but still not bright enough.

Falling income affected my confidence, failing my wife and my children I hide.

The confluence of feelings sour in the heart…I am helpless and I am fearful to action. Failures wasn’t going away, so sticking to doing nothing, I meditated.

I invested in learning finally. Began to find my way in darkness. A journey, a path, dark and narrow, in which aspiration in itself was not enough. I did an objective assessment of myself, one which was long overdue, found out I was failing in my mindset because of a wrong view on body and business.

Going forward on my path, to be brighter and wider, my journey already looks and feels different. The road ahead will be brightly paved, to reflect all the lights, wide enough to shift for a fast ride.

I asked myself 30 questions and out of 120 points I got 61 points. In business and self, I am far away. In spiritual much better. In mindset more improvement needed.

The trigger-drift-shift, developed by Garrett in Wake Up Warriors, hit me hard. For a long time I was in the pit. I didn’t pull on the brake instead slide down the drift to the pit. After several false lifts, triggered over again. I needed a shift and a lift towards the peak.

Mindset weak, business failing, money short, wealth halt and self cold….I am screwed so far! Let’s put an agenda but first pull on the brake and raise a rage. Use that rage to momentum a shift. Find the space and feelings to propel the shift. While at the shift power focus to find a new story for a new feeling and a new action to lift.

Look deep in meditation the fuel that is firing the sense of loss and of no hope. In money and and opportunity I have to get into the action potential. I need to focus energy on making offers in existing businesses. Do not be tempted to make more ‘babies’….channel all the energies to making my existing ‘babies‘ healthier.

Take an example of my son, I told him to master in one. Do not be a jack of all. I have sausage, service apartment, restaurant and forwarding businesses. Do I create more opportunities? Maybe action potential is what I need, to convert current businesses into liquidity.

Kill those “babies” that ain’t working out.

Am I publishing enough? Getting myself in others head.